Morning People

I extended my paid account last night. *GRINS* I dont think I could ever go back to a free account. Thanks friends for addicting me. I am just starting to wake up and plan my day. R informed me that on the news there was a story about a guy who built a cat condo in his back yard for feral cats. It is queen sized, 4 bedroom, heated, etc. I WANT. I really want to figure out if he is in lexington and if he does trap neuter release the animals. That would be so cool. Maybe I could get him to build me one.

Another cat note, Serendipity heads to the vet today to have her rash looked at. I hope it isnt ringworm, but that is a possibility. It might just be a dermatitis of some sort. The kittens are growing so fast. I dont think Melodie will ever like them. He just tolerates them. You stay in your space, dont come into mine or you will get swatted.

Ok, time to get dressed on this WARM day. It is already 48 degrees out. 2 days ago it was like 20 at this time of the morning. I might not even need a jacket.

Weird state

My emotions seem to be bouncing all over the place since yesterday. One minute close to tears, the next up and silly. Little things that go wrong have been making me almost break down. I am also at times outside myself watching these switches take place. Really weird. I am almost doing a play by play commentary in my head about my emotional state. Looking at the computer desk, and thinking what a fuck up I am for how it looks and then wondering if I have the energy to deal with it. I know I only have 3 things planned for today, but wonder if I will spend the rest of the time wasted online. I look at the dining room and see another MESS. I want hugs but dont want to be touched. I am hungry but dont want to eat. I want advice, but wont be able to handle it. I will just take it as a criticism. It is good though that I can see these waves coming. I use to just so overwhelmed and freaked. If I know it is coming I can batten down the hatches. It wont affect my loves ones as much this way. I can make plans and go slowly thru the day.

Cat update

Serendipity has an allergic reaction. She got a shot of cortizone, and the Vet says she should look alot better in 7-10 days. He made a comment that kinda irked me. That the scabbing was rather dramatic. I took it too mean he was surprised it took me this long to come in. I did call and made the appt when I noticed the fur falling out alittle (on tues). It has gotten worse in just the past 2 days. It was small before, like little cuts, and I figured it was like melodie with the flea allergy, so getting the fleas off would work. That was about a month ago when I did the frontline. And it did get alittle better then. *sighs* Ok, need to just sit and breathe. I really want to go out and stuff my face. Only 3 days into a new healthy eating plan and I already want to have a splurge day. I need to find another way to deal with stress other than eating or shopping. I wish I could make exercise that stress reliever. :)

More News

I think I might beat my posting record of 7 in one day today. I called the building inspector and started the ball rolling for trying to get our money back and to go into mediation. They need a copy of our contract. I could not find it for the life of me. Then I remembered I used it for the address on 12/3 when I drove out to the guy's house. It was still out in the car in the phone book by the map. He called tues night and said he would call that night or wed. He never called, and his cell phone is turned off. That was his last chance. All the doors are locked back so he cant get in to get his stuff, and we are going to start seeing what we can do about it. I am so gullible at times. I did check his status, but didnt realize everything that should be on the contract. I have friends who do alot of remodeling, and I did consult them. Just the stuff seemed to have gone in one ear and out the other. *sighs*

Other kitty news. I am trying to decide if I want to let Dustbunnie become a kitty blood donor. She has a very good temperament. I dont think it would harm her. I did ask in catsgalore if anyone has done it before. I feel it would be giving back to the animal community.

Ryans for lunch

D and I are heading out to Ryans for lunch. I know I am going to overeat and I have been thinking about ways to limit that. I love their food. my plan of attack.
1) get a nice BIG salad of mostly green good for me stuff. Light on the cheese, eggs, salads, etc. Use light dressing and vinegar.
2) Get Water to drink
3) Limit myself to 2 rolls
4) go for the non-fried food on the bar. I know I could get a grilled meal, but then I would eat the fries and more food.
5) get a potato and eat the skin and some of the guts.
6) get some fruit. Do not get much dessert. Maybe the low/no fat yogurt.

I have only had a banana today, so kinda 'saving' calories for Ryans. I also plan to go light on food the rest of the day.

Day just got Weird.

Came home after getting R to the door being unlocked. I was worried I forgot to lock it because the only other reason it would be unlocked is if D came home. He wasnt sick or anything, so I had no clue about why he would be home. But he is. It seems someone reported him because of his breakroom talking about the military and terrorists, and such. A concerned cow-worker felt it was in the best interest of the company to alert them to this 'threat'. Give me a break, the man hunts have begun. They told him he should get paid, they have to go by the standard policy, blah blah blah. Of course I am worried he will lose his job. He needs to be less open at times. *sighs*

Weight Issues

Doctor's appt went well today. We looked thru my file and I was able to actually see that yes I have lost some weight and kept it off over the past 2 years. When I started going to her I was at 293. Today I weighed in at 265, a nice loss of 28lbs. I was honestly wondering I had lost anything. I couldnt remember what my highest weight was. She said that my goal of getting to 200lb is a good one. She isnt one of these doctors who is pushing me to get down to 120lb that all the charts seem to say I should be. *GAG* I like my doc and it has been good for me to go to her. She thinks that at 200lbs I would be off the high blood pressure pills and other things.

Tonight I go to my first Tai chi class. I am so NERVOUS. I dont know what to wear, what to bring, what to do. *BREATHE* I know I am going to be self conscious about my shape, and alittle worried about my knee. I will go and get thru this. I can do this. It will be good no GREAT for me. Just have to keep the good thoughts.

Recap of day

And this makes post #8! Just broke my record. *giggles*

I enjoyed Tai Chi alot. We have a wide range of people from a military ranger to a grandmother. We learned the first 5 moves. I was able to draw on my previous lessons to keep balance and breathing. I realized I was shifting my weight to the wrong foot on one move. Need to stay on my toe so I dont shift forward.

We went to Kmart and got some small things. They had X-mas stuff for 75% off finally. Alot of wrapping paper, so I got 2 packages of 5 rolls. One has a Santa holding a squirrel. We just had to get that one. Another had Santa in a cape that has the sun and stars on it. Very paganish.

I need to head out and have date night with D.