Whatever

I so do not want to go into work today. If I made a drinking game one drink would be when I mentioned I didnt want to go into work and there would be 3 drinks for a day I didnt sign up for surplus. Or maybe 5 drinks since that will hardly ever happen.
I am sick and tired of having to wear a pad. It fucking sucks to have breakthru bleeding. AT least it isnt as bad as what happened in Dec. I am just so pissed about it. I never had this happen before. I cant get in to see my doc till Feb 21st, and we will probably have to change my BC AGAIN. This time the bleeding started on the 2nd week of pills. The reason I got on the damn pill was to be regular. This just bites.
My healthy eating has gone to hell in a handbasket. I am just munching alot. I dont think I am binging, but still eating over 2000 calories a day. Today I will get back on track with at least the eating. I am still drinking alot more water than I use to. That is one bright spot in this weekend. Must cling to that.
Last night I went thru my mind about all the pills in the house and what combos I could take. I know I dont want to die, just wanted to space out alittle bit. To not have to think. Just want to sleep. I wonder if I could do my job drugged. I have headache pills. Hmmm. Maybe. It would be so nice to not get upset at my job for one day. To not let the idiots bother me.
We have no money. But that is about normal. I am keeping fingers and toes crossed about the mortgage refinancing. I need to get my butt in gear and get the stuff they need done done. If Phaeton gets his bonus this week then the household should be able to borrow some. Then of course there is the taxes. We have that meeting tomorrow. We almost gave in and went someplace to get the money on friday, but why pay to have someelse do it. Since each made under 33,000 the IRS will file electronically for us. I think it takes a week to get the money.

DAmn, now I have to head out to get ready for work. Alot of jumbled thoughts are running thru my head. I need a vacation. I hate when I am scheduled 7 days in a row. Even with getting surplus and some 1/2 days it is still fucking draining. I dont want to have to think anymore.

Got a vacation day

I have almost used up all of my floating days vacation days. (we get 5) I took another 1/2 day today which means I have used 3.5 days. I just really needed some alone time. I love Jeshua and Phaeton but for the past week something was different, and realized what it was. I was use to having the afternoon alone. To relax, talk to LadyPeaceM, take a nap etc. To just unwind before having to head back to work on a split. Last week Jeshua was between assignments and was home everyday. Phaeton took a personal day on friday. I dont feel like I had any alone time last week. Even when they were playing games I wasnt ALONE. This is the first day where there is quiet when I got home. I like it. I think I am a much nicer person when I get alittle quiet/alone time each day. I am not as much of a bitch when I can have alone time. I need to remember this for the future.

Tax Refund

I have been thinking about what the money will go towards. I know I need to set most of it aside for the basement. I just hope I have enough to do other things. I want to get the layaway out, buy a trap or 2, and maybe, if I get up the guts and can justify it, get a tattoo. I have been wanting 2 for awhile now. I want a Kirin (chinese unicorn) and the head of a black unicorn. The Kirin is for my left calf, and the unicorn is for the back of my left shoulder. I do not think I will be able to get them though.

Shopping Trip

Jeshua and I headed to Meijer's when got home from work today. He got to come home early from his new job. I did really good even with prices getting raised all over the place. I spent about $56 bucks and got 62 items. Not too shabby. I get friskies canned food and the tags by the item say it is up to 47cents, (up from 27cents) but they only rang up 32cents (SCORE) I for once stuck really close to the list I made. Hey LadypeaceM, if you didnt notice the idahoan potato pouches are on sale. :) I know you have lots of coupons. *grins* My savings today were $26.31 ad, and $18.55 coupons. The 12 pack coke had coupons on them. *grins* I took an extra for next time. Plus with buying 6 lean cuisine I got a coupon to get a cooler free. I went back in and got the cooler. :) Had to spend 18cent. Ouch that hurt. (tax you know)

I am happy camper, much better mood.

Should I or not.

I finally got my Loreal Hair color sample from start sampling. I picked Golden Dark Brown. Now I have to decide if I want to color my hair or not. Decisions decisions. I will have to wait till the cut on my scalp heals though. I tried to pick a color close to my hair color, but I think this is lighter. Oh well