Whatever

[demariana]

I so do not want to go into work today. If I made a drinking game one drink would be when I mentioned I didnt want to go into work and there would be 3 drinks for a day I didnt sign up for surplus. Or maybe 5 drinks since that will hardly ever happen.
I am sick and tired of having to wear a pad. It fucking sucks to have breakthru bleeding. AT least it isnt as bad as what happened in Dec. I am just so pissed about it. I never had this happen before. I cant get in to see my doc till Feb 21st, and we will probably have to change my BC AGAIN. This time the bleeding started on the 2nd week of pills. The reason I got on the damn pill was to be regular. This just bites.
My healthy eating has gone to hell in a handbasket. I am just munching alot. I dont think I am binging, but still eating over 2000 calories a day. Today I will get back on track with at least the eating. I am still drinking alot more water than I use to. That is one bright spot in this weekend. Must cling to that.
Last night I went thru my mind about all the pills in the house and what combos I could take. I know I dont want to die, just wanted to space out alittle bit. To not have to think. Just want to sleep. I wonder if I could do my job drugged. I have headache pills. Hmmm. Maybe. It would be so nice to not get upset at my job for one day. To not let the idiots bother me.
We have no money. But that is about normal. I am keeping fingers and toes crossed about the mortgage refinancing. I need to get my butt in gear and get the stuff they need done done. If Phaeton gets his bonus this week then the household should be able to borrow some. Then of course there is the taxes. We have that meeting tomorrow. We almost gave in and went someplace to get the money on friday, but why pay to have someelse do it. Since each made under 33,000 the IRS will file electronically for us. I think it takes a week to get the money.

DAmn, now I have to head out to get ready for work. Alot of jumbled thoughts are running thru my head. I need a vacation. I hate when I am scheduled 7 days in a row. Even with getting surplus and some 1/2 days it is still fucking draining. I dont want to have to think anymore.

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[sydb42.livejournal.com]

Good luck at the doctor, that is a long time to wait for something like that, I would think. Of course, sometimes I wonder what the people who make appointments are thinking. Wolf had abdominal pain that he called the doctor's office about and they gave him an appointment for *a week* from when he called. When the doc found out about this, she was alarmed as the pain was in the area of the *appendix*. You know, something that left untreated could have *killed* him? Fortunately, it was not the appendix, just a pulled muscle, but that could have been a huge malpractice lawsuit.

As for the taxes, if you can wait for the IRS to send you the money, that is the best way to go. Fees to get taxes done are ridiculous. Wolf and I paid not only for someone else to do our taxes, but also to get a rapid refund because it was almost a week til he got paid, the fridge and pantry were empty, and no money for food or anything else. And, as long as we were getting *that much* money back, we got some fun stuff too. :) But, we've put back money that *hopefully* will stay there (for once) and we won't be in that situation again. We're back on the envelope system and, *so far*, following it pretty well. We'll see how it goes.