Why?

[demariana]

Why do I continue to talk to people that just piss me off? Why do I have to stay in their 'good graces'? I know some of it is because I have seen their evil aimed at others and I really dont want to deal with it aimed at me. I play nice when I really just want to tell them off. I care too much about some people to cause enemies. I know if I snap my family will be behind me, but I really dont want to put them thru it. I need to just be able to let the jibes and one upmanship some of them do just roll off my back. They really arent worth getting upset about. I keep telling myself that. Maybe someday I will believe it. It just gets so old sometimes. I know they say certain things and then do the exact opposite. One puts smiley faces on almost everything s/he writes. Here, let me insult you, but see the smiley, I am just kidding, hahaha. BullShit. Maybe by talking about it in this journal I can finally get over some things. Be able to let the stuff just slide off. Not get so frustrated with them. It isnt worth it.

Comments

Productive Anger

[tygermoonfoxx.livejournal.com]

I know exactly what you're talking about. Everyone thinks that I'm so tough and assertive but the fact of the matter is when I get face to face with the situations you described, I always back down. If you ever find the answers to why and what to do about it, clue the rest of us in. I don't think you're alone in this particular character trait, however. It's a survival tactic and a much needed one in this weird world we live in.