Morning

Sleeping did not help. I have never felt like this before. I am sitting here at work close to tears. Everyone around is chipper and such. It is making it worse. I can not muster the energy or glee I usually have at this time of year. I just want to curl up in bed and wait out the season. I am trying so hard to not show this to my coworkers. I just want it to be noon. I also have to put on a good face for tonight. I hope I can sleep in the car on the way to Louisville.

Anyone have any ideas of how to get over this? I am trying to think good thoughts and all that happy horse shit. Something I could do or think? Anything? Maybe I should give a professional a call.