Morning

I head back to work today. They called me last night to inform me that they had callout Overtime from 2:30-5 AM. Told them no of course. Probably should have said yes.

Now, right now I am tired, confused, angry, sore, half-awake, jumbled, hungry, scared, annoyed, and just plain pissed.

Last night went so wrong.

Fighting

This isnt exactly what I want to say, but very tired and muddled right now.


The ones I fight the hardest and the most with are the ones I care about the most. Kinda twisted huh? They are the ones that I desire to work things out with. The ones that mean the world to me. I want to make things better. I want to work it out. I know I dont say that enough to them. I am willing to fight with those I love, and who love me. They are worth getting thru the fighting to the problem and getting to the discussion and actually getting better. If I didnt care I wouldnt bother with discussions that could lead to a fight because of high emotions. It isnt worth the trouble or angst that could happen. There are some that I have gotten upset with but because it isnt worth the effort to work it out I have let it go, mostly. We have gone our separate ways. The ones that are important to me are the ones who I will open myself up for heated discussion and fights. Of course because of the fights the ones I love the most are the ones I hurt the most. Isnt that the way.

I wanted

I got surplus this morning. I wanted to go work out. I wanted to get the laundry started.

Instead I laid down and hoped my head would stop hurting. Sun bright want to turn it off. Stop the world from spinning. The pain in my head goes round and round, round and round.

Got to drive Phaeton to work, then home again to lay down. I really dont wan to go back to work.

Daily Dose

I didnt get any surplus on the 2nd half of my shift, so worked 4 hours and 15 minutes. What joy. On the way into work this morning I got the vote for me minute speech by one of the candidates for our Union. Oh yeah I started thinking, elections for union are coming up. You dont get brownie points with me when you try to force a sticker to put on my cup down my throat. Trying to get me to take 2 stickers is even worse.

I figured out most of my headache was from dehydration. I need to drink more water. The rest was good old fashion tension headache. I felt really drained most of the day. I still feel pretty wiped.

I didnt get to the Y, but I did get to go on a short walk with Caritas. We went to Rite Aid and then to Subway so I could get a salad. I did not want to cook tonight.

I got to watch a new Animal Precinct! Very good show. The 2 female agents are back together. I like them ALOT. Jeshua has called them the Bitch and the Butch. *grins*

Took Caritas and Melodie with me when I went to get Phaeton from work. Had someone human to talk to while I waited for once. That was nice.

Bed soon. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.