demariana | Middle of the night ramblings

I am getting alittle bit tired of this being up almost every hour on the hour each night. At least I am not eating in the middle of the night. The other good thing is that I feel awake during the day so I think I am getting enough sleep even with it being so broken up. It is weird to me to be so awake at this time of the night. I will try to head back to bed in a bit of course. Snuggle with Phaeton and the cats.

I think some of my insomnia is worry. We are still in a wait and see mode at work. No answers to the millions of questions. The big one being will we still have a job come June? I am split 50/50 what I want the answer to that question to be. I enjoy my job, but it is dead end. There is no chance of advancement. It will get boring after awhile and I know I will get frustrated in a couple of years. If the center does get outsourced that would force me to do something else. It would also give me some money to start that process. I have been giving the idea of starting my own business serious thought again. I have even asked Jeshua to help me with a small marketing plan. I have been asking Caritas for support and ideas.

The general idea is to start a grocery shopping business for busy people. It would NOT be a small errand service. I want to concentrate on doing the big weekly, bi monthly, or monthly food shopping trips for people. My target market would mostly be single parents or families where both parents work. One of the selling points would be that I would save them money in the end because of using coupons and sales to save them more than what they will be spending on my fees. I would do the shopping trip and then deliver and put the groceries away. I think that it would take about 4 hours total a trip. I am thinking of charging $10-12/ hour. Each client would get a free hour consultation to determine shopping needs. I could handle about 10-20 clients I think each month. My goal would be to get eventually have a set of long term happy clients. There should be 10-20 people in Lexington who could benefit from this type of service. That is a very small percentage of the population. The big dream of this would be to go back to school and get a nutrition degree and then start meal planning for customers at a higher price. Finding recipes and then stocking their pantry and fridge with healthy meals for the week. Giving a menu each week and maybe even working in their kitchen at times to premake some of the healthy foods.

These ideas keep running through my head and waking me up in the middle of the night. The What Ifs and the scared thoughts of if the job does stay and I am stuck in a dead end job, or the scared thoughts that it does get outsourced and I have to do something else. I would have a good 6 months to find something else and/or to start my business. I think that is a good window. It helps that RAnDoM is being very supportive of my beginning thoughts of starting a business. They have been great at bouncing ideas off of, and fleshing out some of my thoughts.

My stomach is doing flip flops right now. I think it is because this is the first time I have written in depth about my idea for public reading.

In other news I finally got back into doing DDR yesterday. I did about a hour. Much fun on endless mode. I got the 2nd high score and had a streak of over 500 moves in a row that were great or perfect. Much fun. I have been playing cribbage again on Furry Muck. I am in 2 tourneys on the muck. Phaeton and I played some cribbage last night before bed and that was fun. We had a date night and went out to Brooklyn Pizza and then Graeter's ice cream. We also went and wandered around Barnes and Noble. Jeshua and I had fun Friday night watching Star Gate and then heading out to Denny's.

Guess that is about it at this time. I think I will try to head back to bed.