demariana | Facial Soon (Reply)

In about 1.5 hours I will be in a chair getting a facial done. Already today I have tried to talk myself out of going at least 5 times. I will be laughed at, the fat girl getting a facial. Like she has an reason to do that. The slob, she isnt chic material. Notice the cuts on her face? and the scars? Like she things this can help now. Making up the whispers that will be going on around me, behind my back. My paranoia is almost in full swing. But Damnit! I am still going. Who cares what they think, I want this for me, and if I like it then damnit I will get another one. I just wish that I didnt have 2 big pimples that I picked at on my face. Hell, maybe when I get there I will spring the extra $10 and get the Advanced Facial. *grins* I am not going to let my unfounded self doubting fears get me down anymore. I know I am going to have these same thoughts when I have to head to the Tai Chi class on the 10th.

Now I am going to head upstairs, get some NICE clothing on and get ready for my facial. I know that if I feel I look good I will have less of these thoughts.