Daily Dose

Another day another dollar. I am at work again. I feel more awake today than I did yesterday. Yesterday was a long day that so dragged. We learned a lot and my brain is full again. There is so much to retain at this new job. I find it very interesting but hard at times. I just want to start doing I think. I did catch a mistake someone made on an account we were watching. They had food yesterday mornings. Lots of sweets. It was someone's 40th b-day. I will learn people's names eventually.

This morning I got up and had a shower. As I was starting to get in I noticed that my toes on my right foot were dark. I know I have a bruising on my foot because of it hurting, but I didnt think it was that bad. I stared in fascination, and then realized it wasnt bruising. I reached down with a wet finger and rubbed off the 'stain' from the new socks I was wearing yesterday. Great way to get alittle scared in the morning to wake me up.

Swimming

TS called last night and 'bullied' me into going back to swim at the Y. *grins* I do find it easier to work out if I have a buddy to go with me. I really need to bring stuff to work and use the machines here as well. Why am I finding it so hard to get back into exercising. The littlest thing gives me a nice excuse. I have put all the weight back on that I had lost last year. I am just disgusted with myself. I figure since I am going to be fat anyway, might as well EAT and EAT and EAT. I had an agreement with Jeshua that I never followed. We were going to encourage each other to not eat late at night, and to eat healthier. A good idea, if I kept up my end. I would get bitchy when he would say something which has caused him to stop saying anything. I am just in a funk I guess. I see food and I eat it. I am pretty good at work because I do not bring really any money, and I only have what I pack most days. Of course they bring in goodies at least once a week it seems, and we can go down and get a bunch of junk. Yesterday was for a 40th b-day, and there was a TABLE full of sweets. I almost got sick from what I ate because it was too much. I need to go back to the doctor and up my high blood pressure meds because I think they are not working as well because of the extra weight. I also need to get back to my ob/gyn and have him frown at me for gaining back the weight. I need to get a prescription again for the glucophage, and birth control.

Yeah, I am bummed about this. I am slightly excited about going to swim, but also have a who cares attitude. I am just going to stop in the future. Maybe just maybe I will find the excitement and will to continue. It just doesnt look that way right now. No light at the end of the tunnel, no end in sight. Maybe there is a glimmer of hope.

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