Nightmare

It is already fading, but when I woke up at 3am it seemed so real. I might even react badly today because of this dream. I really should have come down at 3am and written it because now it is all jumbled.

The Nightmare

I found some drugs that Phaeton had gotten that made semen less thick. I confront him and he tells me that Caritas has decided that she really wants a baby, and has known this for awhile. I remember that the date on the meds is 6/9/02. Commenting on she knew this obviously before she decided on a date to move in, and wanted to make sure she could get pregnant really close to when she had moved in. So in the middle of the night I go down and confront Cartitas in the bathroom. She was trying to take a piss. I fly off the handle telling her that in no uncertain term there will be No child in this house. That is one rule that will not be broken. At one point I ask Phaeton if he wants kids and he is like no. So I comment it is 3 against one. I also continue to yell and bitch out Caritas about if they want a kid they will have to get out of the house. I will not have a kid in my house. I go and get her some of my extra birth control throwing it at her as I still scream that she will get her ass on the pills and stay on them if she wants to stay in the house. etc etc etc. I flush the last pill of Phaeton's down the toilet and tell him that if he tries to refill it he will have to leave. There is alot more screaming and throwing of things.

*shudder* Now maybe I can let the dream go.

Bad day

Very bad day today at work. The customers were complete idiots or crank callers. One guy was nice enough to tell me he wanted me find the listing "penis in my mouth" then he and his friend started to laugh and hang up. I was just so fed I off I told him to screw off. An operator next to me looked over at me. Somestimes it just gets to me. I logged off and went to the bathroom. AFter that I could not get in a good headspace. Came home and got Phaeton to go show me the room downstairs, and then cried on his chest, since I am not tall enough to reach his shoulder. Damn the hug felt good. I wanted to cry last night for some reason but it wouldnt come, but today I was able to. It helped some. I just do not want to go in tomorrow. Maybe they will put me on wireless. Doubtful though because it is the start of a new month. *sighs*

I should eat something. No idea what though. Not sure if I am hungry, or if my body will try and throw it up. Stomach in knots at times.

Ebay

I applied retail therapy to help my mood and used the buy it now feature on a auction. Of course it was for dragonstorm cards. :) I am getting 170 cards for $10. I liked that buy it now. It isnt like some of the other auctions I have seen where the min bid was $5, and the buy it now was for $25. In those auctions you are only getting 150 cards. There are also some auctions for the books. The min bid is set at $9.50, the books new are only $12.95, not much of bargian if you ask me. There is one auction I thought about bidding, but a friend has the high bid, and I dont want to take it from him. I dont need the auction that much. :)

Now I have to wait for the seller to contact me. Maybe he is still online since he listed the item only 1 hour before I bought it.