Bad Dream

I just woke up and had to get a hug from D. I had a really vivid dream that he had decided to move to Alaska in March. I found this out because he asked me to check his email, and he had a post to a list with the subeject: Moving to Alaska. I cried and begged him not to go. What would we do about the house, etc. Why hadnt we talked about this? What was going on? I woke up and it felt so Real. I had to wake him up to ask him if he was thinking about moving to alaska. I hate dreams like this. I cant seem to shake it. I think dustbunnie knows that I am feeling bad because she wont stop licking my fingers and such. She is trying to cuddle.
I am going to go and try to get more sleep. I need it.

I need/ I WANT

I am jonesing hard for a shopping fix. There are 3 things on sale at Kmart right now that I WANT. I so want to go and put them on layaway. Damn, just found out that the warranty only goes up to 250lbs. I am slightly over that. (265) What to do. I could be down to 250 in 10 weeks. That is how long it would take to get the layaway out. Decisions decisions. I really want these machines. I figure they do the warranty kinda low, so that they wont have to pay out. I have been on ladders only rated for 200lbs. Hmmm. I am really leaning towards getting this. Of course it would be cause of wanting to start on my new years resolution. To get into better shape. I want to be fit again.