demariana | Brain not on. (Reply)

I am sick. I was wondering if it was just nerves because of family strife, but my body is doing things it does not do when it is just nerves. Nerves may be a part of it but not all of it, just not helping things. I have had a headache on and off for a couple of days now. It is affecting my communication skills. I can not get my mouth and brain to coordinate. I am struggling to get out the simplest of ideas. Typing is alittle easier, but the tears are close. It does not help that my keyboard goes click click click rather loudly. When I get like this I get extremely snappy and irritable. It comes across as being pissed at the person I am talking to but in reality it is me being totally pissed off at myself for obviously not being able to get my points across. I can not make even the simplest of decisions when I am like this. A headache pill would help the headache but would make communication all the worse. I am crampy, sometimes have the shakes, sick to my stomach, and having liquid guts. Moving from one room to another is taking my energy. Times like this I dislike having stairs. I HATE feeling like this. I have barely eaten anything. I honestly dont know if it would stay down. I have tried sleeping and that is a 50/50 shot if it will help. Alot depends on how long I sleep. If it is not enough the headache will be worse. Too much and very groggy, with a slight headache. Almost passed out in the shower because I shut my eyes, and the water was so nice and warm.

Back to the couch or bed. Maybe I should get dressed, or clean the living room alittle, or organize something, or, or. So much swimming in my head.