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Guess I should update
Apr. 23rd, 2006 08:05 pmFriday night Jeshua and I drove to Louisville since he had to be at the church for his graduation at 7:45. His parents were already checked in. We all went out to dinner and chatted. His parents are ok in small doses. We parted about 9pm and went to bed. Jeshua and I had some fun before sleeping. The bed was too hard and I so tossed and turned. Not fun. The AC was nice though. Got up and got to Waffle house for breakfast at 7am. Worked out well. I dropped Jeshua off in front of the jumbotron/stadium church and went to park. I then got inside and found some really nice seats and got comfy for the wait. I started a new book and got to page 40 before his parents got there. Ceremony was nice, with a woman who is a head cook at Lynn's Paradise Cafe getting the distinguished alumna award. Found out 2 people I know also graduated. That was interesting. One was there, but not sure the other walked. After the ceremony we stopped at Wendy's for lunch and then headed home. His parents drove in alittle bit after we got in and we sat around and chit chatted. Dinner last night was all of RAnDoM and my mom and step dad and Jeshua's parents at Kilbern's. For the price it was OK but not the greatest. I really like how the place looks though. It is nice. The waitress was really attentive.
Today has been a lazy day with a low grade headache most of the day. Jeshua's parents stopped by about 11am before heading out to do some more traveling. They stayed till about 12:30 and then Jeshua and I went out to the newsstand to get the paper.
Caritas has been talking about at times not feeling well and just ick, and I so know how she feels. Today I feel ugly, fat, unlovable, old, tired, sore, falling apart, scared, near tears, wanting to eat and eat and eat and just overall like shit. Face is breaking out, bleeding when I should not be, ankles are swelling because of it being hotter out, and just not wanting to give a flying fig about myself. Want to curl up on the bed and sleep for a couple of days. This is a big sharp contrast to Friday night when I was feeling really happy. I know I should do something. I keep trying to eat better, get moving, etc etc, but then just sink and want to eat and never get out of a bed again. That will not be how I end up though. I know this feeling will pass and get better. The good is always right around the corner.
Today has been a lazy day with a low grade headache most of the day. Jeshua's parents stopped by about 11am before heading out to do some more traveling. They stayed till about 12:30 and then Jeshua and I went out to the newsstand to get the paper.
Caritas has been talking about at times not feeling well and just ick, and I so know how she feels. Today I feel ugly, fat, unlovable, old, tired, sore, falling apart, scared, near tears, wanting to eat and eat and eat and just overall like shit. Face is breaking out, bleeding when I should not be, ankles are swelling because of it being hotter out, and just not wanting to give a flying fig about myself. Want to curl up on the bed and sleep for a couple of days. This is a big sharp contrast to Friday night when I was feeling really happy. I know I should do something. I keep trying to eat better, get moving, etc etc, but then just sink and want to eat and never get out of a bed again. That will not be how I end up though. I know this feeling will pass and get better. The good is always right around the corner.
