Once again at work

I get to feel like I do not fit in.

-I am not Christian
-I do not have kids
-I like 'strange' things
-I am not Republican

The feeling has been getting more and more pronounced as the year has gone on. Noone really talks to me. I feel like I am always the one saying even hello. Others talk to each other over and around me. Once again an ugly duckling. I am just tired at times. Tired of seeing everyone else go out to lunch with each other. Tired of not being in on the jokes. Tired of just being sometimes. Wish I could get a good cry.

No idea what to get anyone. No desire to send out cards or be in the holiday mood. Grasping at small gestures and knowing it drives people away. Need to just not care it seems. I am different. I am me. I know there are people who like me.

It just hurts sometimes.